Jamie's girlfriend

1) This isn't going to be a "I hate her THIS *(^%$#& MUCH!" post.

Kyra's actually really awesome, and I think Jamie's pretty lucky to have her :) She's really down to earth and someone I can really get along with. In fact, I like her more than I like Monique, who has a crush on Jamie and therefore hates Kyra.

Like whatever. I'm glad Jamie's got her. He needs someone who can be there no matter what. He also needs someone who can put up with Monique's crap.

I had work from 4-7 today. It's pathetic when an Indian man walks in in plaid blue and white pyjamas, bunny slippers and an eyemask and you don't even bat a freakin eyelid.

Anyway, pretties, what's everyone else been doing?

Sorry guys ^^

I was in Queensland. It was pretty cool I guess, I'll upload some pictures later ^^

I just made contact with an old friend - or rather he made contact with me. He wasn't just any friend, either, he was my first boyfriend... in grade 4. Hahahaha. Anyway, him and my best male friend ever - Jamie - used to be best mates, and used to hang out with Evan, a guy Jamie can't stand anymore.

Hayden (the dude who contacted me on facebook) ditched Jamie, who he'd known since they were born, to hang out with Evan. Evan and Hayden were... feral. That's the only word for it.

Anyway, he just told me he's coming back to town.

All I can say is oh &#$!

I remember Jamie and Hayden and Evan back in year 8 - which was nearly 4 years ago. Jamie was this dorky, chubby kid with brown hair in a bowl haircut. He annoyed everyone (not an understatement. Nobody could stand him). Evan was the top dog of the ferals, the person that every boy wanted to be and every girl wanted to be a part of. And Hayden was sort of a nice guy pretending to be a bad guy.

But that's all different now. Hayden moved away in year 8. Jamie grew into his own person - he's nearly 6 foot now, dyed his hair black, has two lip piercings and he couldn't be a nicer guy. He doesn't give a flying pig what people think of him. He's really gentle, usually, unless something's pissed him off.

Evan is someone you don't cross paths with unless you have a death wish.

I just realised that now they're all on different points of the spectrum. Jamie would definitely beat Hayden in a fight anyday now. Well, maybe if he could bring himself to hit him.

But they wouldn't be able to be friends anymore. Jamie never liked that Hayden went out with me, because we were both his best friends. It was too close for comfort, I guess.

Anyway, what's everyone been doing?

Queensland :)

I won't be on for a week. Going to Queensland! Have relay for life tonight as well ^^

1. Write the name of a person of the opposite sex. Jamie Tibbits

2. Which is your favorite color out of red, black, blue, and green, yellow? Blue

3. Your first initial? A

4. Your month of birth? September

5. Which color do you like more, black or white? White

6. Name of a person of the same sex as yours. Karisma Patterson Husband

7. Your favorite number? 56

8. Do you like California or Florida more? Florida :)

9. Do you like the lake or the ocean more? Ocean

10. Write down a wish (a realistic one). I wish I could eat chocolate and not put on weight (wtf is a realistic wish anyway?)

Are you done?

If so, scroll down...

...

1. You are completely in love with this person. (Not true! He's my best friend!)

2. If you choose:

Red: You are alert and your life is full of love.

Black: You are conservative and aggressive.

Green: Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back.

Blue: You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love. (This is very true.)

Yellow: You are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are down.

3. If you’re initial is:

A-K: You have a lot of love and friendships in your life. (Also very true.)

L-R: You try to enjoy life to the maximum and your love life is soon to blossom.

S-Z: You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.

4. If you were born in:

Jan.-Mar.: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.

Apr.-June: You will have a strong love relationship that will not last long but the memories will last forever.

July-Sept.: You will have a great year and will experience a major life changing experience for the good. (It's already happened. I'm sort of glad it did but it was hard)

Oct.-Dec.: Your love life will not be too great, but eventually you will find your soul mate.

5. If you choose...

Black: Your life will take on a different direction; it will seem hard at the time but will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.

White: You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it. (I realise it. She's my best friend)

6. This person is your best friend. (True! She's the only one I trust completely. She's the only one who hasn't stabbed me in the back yet)

7. This is how many close friends you have in a lifetime. (Wow.)

8. If you choose...
California: You like adventure.
Florida: You are a laidback person. (So much a bomb could go off and I would sleep through it.)

9. If you choose...
Lake: You are loyal to your friends and your love. And you are very reserved.
Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people. (Hahahaha)

10. This wish will come true only if you RE-POST THIS BULLETIN in one hour and it will come true before your next birthday!

A fresh start.

That's what this is meant to be - a fresh start away from all the drama. I deliberately won't give this address to any of my friends. It needs to be somewhere I can vent - somewhere I can be me. I can't do that around my friends.

Isn't that sad? I can't be myself around my friends.

When people read what I write, it’s almost a risk.

Because some people are shallow. They sit there and they think “wow, how emo” when that’s not what I’m trying to get across. They don’t understand. But some people… they see me. And if I put my work out for people to see, they see me. They see what I think. They see what I feel.

I don’t know people to know everything I think or feel. What I think or feel is a part of me, and the only one who knows me fully is Riz. She understands (freakishly well) and I don’t care what anyone else thinks really, so long as I have her and Erin.

That brings me to something else – death.

So, everyone I’ve talked to about this says there was at least one occasion when they cried to their mother and told their parents they never wanted to die. If you think about people – the memories, feelings, emotions, the very essence – can that really be wiped out by a biological clock? The soul isn’t a physical part of the body, and neither is the mind. The body is the vessel that carries these throughout life.

Maybe it’s just preparing us for something more later?

On another note – yeah thanks, to my wonderful friends, who oh so thoughtfully mentioned to me that PLUCKING YOUR EYEBROWS HURT! Not really, they never mentioned it -.-

I messaged Nessy about it and she's like "oh yeah, it doesn't hurt, you'll be fine!"

IT CAINED! YOU LIARS!

:(

So, 25 random things about me.

1. I am not a "OHMYGAWD IT'S RAINING!" kind of person. I am a "HOLY CRAP IT'S RAINING, BELT IT OUT, DANCE ABOUT!" I literally do rain dances, no matter where I am. Rain is pretty rare is Australia.

2. Probably I should attempt to be more tolerant. It's hard but I'm getting there.

3. I am really easy to scare. I can know you're behind me and about to scare me and if you say "Boo!" I will jump. And scream.

4. I spend a lot of my classtime in maths writing people letters that I never give them. None of my friends are in my maths class.

5. I wonder about a lot of serious crap I don't think many other people do. Look at the "miracle" transplants in the world, of bionic arms and things. How long before these aren't miracles but curses?

6. I love a lot or not at all. I don't halfway like, halfway dislike someone. I do it right or not at all.

7. I would much rather eat a fresh peach than chocolate. Healthier for you anyway.

8. Sometimes I feel like I'm not sympathetic enough. I know it's not true, but I can't help but wonder whether it's a strength or a weakness.

9. Sometimes I need to escape from the nothing I have to escape from. I don't think I should ever feel like this when so many people go through so much else.

10. I try to live without regrets. So far, so good.

11. When bad things happen, I try to look on the bright side no matter what. Everything has a subliminal nature to it. I just try to learn from that.

12. Once you've hurt me, it's not easy to for me to let you back in. I'll accept apologies, but I'm not a naturally trusting person. Can't decide if it's good or bad.

13. I wonder how many memories are mine or imagined. Who really knows, after all?

14. I have a half brother I've only met a few dozen times and I'm closer to him than nearly all my friends.

15. I have a freakish obsession for jackets.

16. If I don't agree with someone, I don't tell them. I just say "maybe you're right" and let them continue on in their own happy little world. I know what I think and feel, and I don't feel the need to justify it to others on trivial matters.

17. I think the world is a beautiful disaster.

18. I don't tell people if I'm hurt. I never have. I never will.

19. Though I love people, I also love being alone.

20. Abortion and pro-life protesters both frustrate me. I believe that abortion is in every sense of the word murder, but there are some justifiable reasons. As for pro-life protesters - don't do it outside an abortion clinic. Everyone has a right to privacy. That's a person you're hurting, right there.

21. I try to watch things that will enlighten me, even if they're banned. Adults can't "protect" us forever, and is that what they're really doing, in the long run?

22. At the same time, I appreciate the lengths adults go to to keep us safe. Most of them, anyway.

23. I love life. I love being alive. Living for me is enough.

24. I want to help people. I want to be a clinical psychologist, help people get their loved ones and selves back.

25. By the time I finished this, I was out of things to say.